March Favorites

March Favorite's!

This six favorites which I got as a gift from my boyfriend and one from my mom. In this color is my thoughts about the product.When you see red color with a line under it, its the link, where you can buy the item.Everything is bought by my boyfriend, but the top I bought myself and my mom bought the hair cream. 

Cupcake % Caffeine Top-

 This top, is so soft and its modest. Its nice to wear on cool or  a warm day. I can't find a link to get the top. Sorry 

Too Faced Semi Sweet Chocolate Bar-

 This eye shadow make up, its very great and makes you want to have some chocolate. It is made from cocoa. This make up palette have so many different combs for different looks. Semi Sweet Makeup

Too Faced Blush in Perfect Flush Blush-

This blush is not too bright, its a neural blush. Its gives you just the right amount of color in your face.Perfect Flush Blush  

Nars Velvet Matte Lipstick Pencil in Cruella-

This red lipstick pencil is the PERFECT deep red. This red brings out those white teeth to POP! This lipstick isn't good if you want to kiss your special someone on the lips.Red Lip Pencil
Sci Bella Styling Creme-

This product is amazing and plus its smells good! This styling cream can be used with wet or dam hair.The cream helps hold in curls and helps make your hair look natural with any hair style without having the hard, crushing of gel. Styling Creme

True Escape Spray- 

 This spray smells amazing, and it last all day. Its little bit strong, but not over powerful. Spray 

Thank you for reading my blog post. 

My mom.

For my mom. 

My Mom.

My mom isn't a perfect person, but she is only human.

My mom is a strong women, but she isn't a body builder. 

My mom is loving and caring,but she is cuddle bug. 

My mom is a great listener, but tells her opinion.

My mom is great cook, but you don't want be in her way of cooking.

My mom is random,but so silly.

My mom is helpful, but won't ask for help.

My mom is a child of God, but won't ever change that.

My mom is a hard worker, but doesn't get a chance to sit down. 

My mom is humble person, but she won't do anything for herself.

My mom is a bright light, but never cries. 

My mom is one of kind,but she is only a mom to one kid.

My mom is beautiful, but she doesn't wear make up.

My mom is smart, but never went to college.

My mom is everything I want in a mom, but she is the only one for me.

My mom is so fun to be with, but she still my mom. 

My mom is super close to me, but she won't be my best friend.

My mom is my role model, but she isn't perfect.

I love my mom so much, I'm so lucky to have a wonderful mom. 

My mom and I.  My grandpa,great aunt,grandma.
Photo Credit: Me

Why I choose not to drink alcohol ever.

Why I choose not having alcohol, there is many reasons why I choose not to have any alcohol. I am straight out telling you why I don't want drink, but if you do drink and you are 21 years old, that is your choose. I hate seeing that people under 21 years old and seeing them post on Twitter and Instagram and Facebook, them drinking with pictures of them having alcohol or posting the alcohol and bragging about drinking alcohol. 

I don't want never pick up any drinks with alcohol because my dad is an alcoholic and his side of the family are alcoholic's. My dad started to drink lightly when I was young, after his stroke when I was 10 years old, he became drinking strong liquor. Over 10 years, my dad became drinking Vodka. Its just sad to see my dad can't go one day without drinking.

Another reason, I don't want drink because I wanted to have a mother and daughter or son relationship when I have kids. My dad and I were super close before his stroke and after his stroke, he gave up on life and wants to waste his life with drinking. My dad told me, that he doesn't care about me and he doesn't love me. I tried so many times to get my dad to quit drinking and get a father and daughter bond, but he doesn't care. 

Why should I drink and be alcoholic and who wants to have a wife who is an alcoholic? My boyfriend, he quit drinking period for me before we started to date. He quit drinking for me because he doesn't want me to worried about him becoming alcoholic. When I turn 21, he didn't took me to a bar and he didn't gave me alcohol. 

Another reason, I don't drink because in the Bible its says  Pr 23:20-21 (NIV) "Do not join those who drink too much wine or gorge themselves on meat, for drunkards and gluttons become poor, and drowsiness clothes them in rags."  I know that Jesus turn water into wine, but in the Bible it also says don't over do it. 

So, why I should waste my money and calories on an alcohol drink, when there is better drinks out there? I love drinking ice tea's and coffee. Its hard to see my mom struggling with money. My mom doesn't give my dad money for alcohol. My dad gets hang over and he doesn't go to work and when he doesn't work, he doesn't get paid. He steals money from my mom and I, he snoops for cash and tries to find ways to get money. He takes something from home and sells it on to a random person. My dad doesn't care if we struggling for money.

Alcohol isn't good for your liver and more. Health Factors of drinking, short and long terms. 

A poem, I wrote.

I wrote a poem, I hope you like it. I do write poems and my family loves them. This poem, I just came up with. If you want me add more poems, please tell me. I don't know if this one is good or not. 


Women's are like roses.

We are soft and delicate, but got thorns to protect us. 
We bloom up when we wanted to get to know someone.
We easily fall apart,when we get damage. 
We are pretty  inside and out.
We are strong, but with end we get weak from not being care for. 
We need our gardener to give us love, to help us grow.
We always fight to stay alive. 
We never get away from our gardener to protect us from getting damage.

Photo Credit: Myself

Junior Year

Hello Upper Class, goodbye lower class. First off, my best friend and I are not friends anymore. I try my hardest to become friends again, but fail each time. She blocked me on Facebook, on her phone and won't even talk to me. So, sad going to junior year without having a close friends, but I still have friends from 8th grade from that English class. Let's start off with my classes I had. Drawing and Painting (which I wasn't very great at, but I pass with a "B". Physical Science,Math( highest math they teach),World History, Office Practice.

Can you guess which class I love the most? Well, I love them all. I wasn't very great at painting and drawing. I really love my math class because it was very hard and I was using my brain a lot. I LOVE office practice because it was my last period and I was able to go to classrooms and drop off notes for the office. I was working in the attendance office. Those ladies were super sweet and caring. I love getting to get out of school, before the after school rush and I got ahead start on walking home. In junior year, I was enjoying it so much. I hang out with a person from my math class when I was a freshmen and we became super close. We had nicknames for each other name beef buddies. LOL! Right? My math teacher was the same teacher I had for 10th grade history, but Yay no rude students! All those rude students are in low math. My  history teacher is my English teacher too. I told my mom, how much I hate the speech person and so, I took a whole year off from speech! WOOHOO! Now at lunch time, I eat with my beef buddy and my friends from my classes. We ate inside a classroom and it was so fun. For one week, it was pouring down rain. It was raining hard with wind, and try to image walking to class to class getting soak and cold again, on top of that, I had to walk home. One time, I was walking home on a raining day, someone drove fast and a big slash and I got SUPER wet and cold. 
Well, my ex friend, she change a lot during the Summer time. How she change? First off, since I met her, she was not into photography and she was not into running that much. Off the back, I love taking pictures and I love to run. I was on the local track team younger and I started to become into taking pictures since 2003. So, how she change was, she made the school track team and she had photography class which I was so sad that I didn't got because the photography is hard to get into. She became popular and hang out with people who she never hang out with. In junior year, I went on field trip with my art class and another one with my Science class. This year, my beef buddy was senior year. :( Something really made me super happy, well can you guess??? I met a amazing, sweet guy who I became crushing on and he was so handsome.. I didn't know what God plan was for me and why he put this handsome guy in my life. Find out more about this secret person in my blog post about my SENIOR year!! :D 

Who I watch on Youtube?

HI only met one Youtuber, Can you guess who? 

This list isn't in order of my favorites, its in random order. Vlogs means the couple or person films their day to day life and post it on Youtube to share. 

• ItsJudylife- Judy,Benji,Julianna,Miya, Keira. Funny thing is the twins born one day after my birthday and Julianna and I names are so close, but I have a "E" in the end of my name which Julianna, have a "a." I am 20 years older than the twins. They do daily vlogs.
• ItsJudytime- Judy beauty channel
• Itsmommylife- Judy mommy channel
• Alli Speed- she so sweet.
• Ann Le aka Anneorshine- she great at crafts 
• AprilJustinTV- April and Justin with their cute son,Liam. They do  daily vlogs.
• AprilAthena7- April beauty channel.
• Benjimantv- Judy hubby, his cooking channel.
• bamchick1101- Cullen and Katie with their babygirl, Macey Gaines! Search on Instagram #Targetballing. Vlog daily. 
• Bubzvlogz- So cute little family.
• BuzzfeedBlue
• BuzzFeedViolet
• BuzzFeedPop
• BuzzFeedYellow
• ByronTabott- AMAZING cook! Always makes me drool and hungry! A cooking channel.
• CookwithApril- From AprilJustintv, April Cooking channel, post on Tuesdays and Thursdays
• Dope2111- AMAZING talent, does looks
• Ellie and Jared- Oh my goodness, their family is so cute, makes you wanted to have their life. They have a son name Jackson and he is so cute and sweetheart that will melted your heart and they are expecting their second child which is a boy and the name is Calvin Scott. They do daily vlogs.
• Ellie Mecham- Ellie Beauty channel from Ellie and Jared
• Grav3yardgirl- Bunny does beauty and tea vlogs and all different videos. Who is part of the swamp family? Sassy buns? Sweet tea and slippy slippy.  Don't forget to give a alligator wings.
• Kandee Johnson- Does beauty videos,does a lot kind of videos
• KatieOnTheFlipSIde- Cullen's wife Katie NEW channel! Every Thursday she will be posting
• LoraandLayton- They used to do vlogs,but they got messages of death threats of their 3 boys and they stop Youtube, but they still have their videos they had post up.
• Lush- Of course! Who doesn't know lush? 
• Mama Natural- Amazing mama who is all natural and her family is so cute and she is a Christian and I love learning about being a mama.
• Rachel Talbott- Byron wife and its her beauty channel. Amazing wife to her hubby and great mom to her son, Ollie. A wonderful Christian.
• Rosanna Pansino- A creative baker and does tags with her sister Mo.
• ThatsHeartTV- Heart and her hubby to be daily vlogs. A wonderful,cute couples. They are madly in love with each other. 
• ThatsHeart- Heart beauty channel
• TheFineBros- Two brothers post videos of kids react to videos and Elders react to videos, teens react to videos. 
• React- The Fine brothers other channel with more videos of kids reacting to food, advice videos from kids to seniors. 
• Yoyomax12- Tammy who cooks and does different ways of making food.
• Can you guess who I met with my boyfriend??? We met Judy and Benji Travis!!! They are so kind and nice and funny and caring. We met them before the twins were born, we met them in Hollywood. 

  

  Judy from itsjudylife, Me,My boyfriend. She is so beautiful. 

Benjimantv,My boyfriend,I Youtube

Sophomore Year

Hello Sophomore year! Yay not the newbies in high school!
In Sophomore year, I had math,history,p.e, English, ceramic, biology.

 Yippie no more Study Skills! I love ceramic class, but I am not very crafty and I am not great at arts in general. I took ceramic because I needed a class to replace Study Skills and that is fun, but have the points for me to graduate high school. I really wanted to take photography, but that class got booked up so fast. That year, my friend and I wanted to try out for Track and Field, but we became too busy and forgot about the try outs. Oh well.. In my ceramic class, there was a student from Taiwan and  I became friends with her and we became more like sisters. I hang out with her so much. She was super sweet, and she was one year older than I am.Her name was Daisy in American. I HATE HATE history class and I hate my teacher, I had. My history  class was VERY boring and hard work and A LOT of disrespectful students and talk backing ones. If you know me that I HATE when people are rude,disrespectful and plan up jerks. My teacher, she had health problems and she couldn't walk without a walker and the students were being rude and mean to her and treating her like crap. It was so sad to see how students treated her so poorly. I love my biology teacher, she was very sweet and believes in the same values as me. I love my English teacher, she was very sweet and caring. In 10th grade, my mom and I and all my teachers each year we do a meeting and in 10th grade meeting, my mom was thinking of putting me into speech! Ewww NO!! -Flash backs came back- Sadly, I got speech! Yay! NOT!!! It's with the speech teacher from middle school, who I HATE DEARLY! Before the school year was over, Daisy told me that she have to go back to her home country after school year was over :( NOO!!! WHY! After the school year was over, Daisy gave me a lot gifts and we took tons of pictures. I miss her super much. We are still friends as today and still keep on talking to each other and haven't see her since 2010!  Well, I turn 16th in 2010 and my friend gave me balloons and cupcakes and it was the best birthday ever.  I bought my friend balloons for her 16th birthday. I didn't wanted to learn how to drive at all that year. WHAT? You might said, because my mom works for a insurance company and she knows how much it cost and we didn't want spend a lot money plus I didn't need to drive anywhere and my mom drove me places. I love my 10 grade year of school. I couldn't wait for junior year with my friends! Sadly... that Summer went wrong... :( 

Well...the friendship with my bff and I ended.. NOT Cassandra!
Who wants to heard how we break up the friendship? 

50 random things about me!

50 random things about me! Just like Youtuber's did the tag, I am doing it too, but on a blog post. Let's begin! 

1. I am Christian 
2. I got webb hand on my left hand, that effects my ring finger and pinkey finger. So, if I put do put a ring on my left ring finger the ring will be not fix normal. 
3. I have a scar on my left hip that used to be on my back
4. I am very great in math
5. but weak in English 
6. I can watch medicine shows while eating 
7. I haven't ever got into a car crash *Knock on wood*
8. I'm skinny, but I can lift up to 150 pounds 
9. I won't ever picked up any alcohol 
10. I pull my hair out, but not to a point of getting bald spots
11. I have a stigma 
12. I never gone to Sea World 
13. I never gone on an airplane 
14. I never gone out of California
15. I never gone up North California
16. I never smoke 
17. I am Virgin 
18. I collect snow globes
19. I bite my nails
20. I fart louder than guys
21. I sneeze louder than most or all females 
22. I hate wearing bras
23. I hate spending a lot time on getting ready
24. I hate roller coasters
25. I am afraid of the dark
26. I am  afraid of rats
27. I never got a ticket
28. I never gone to jail
29. I only know how to speak English
30. I hate History 
31. I love learning about someone life
32. I sneak soda's at night to drink ( Not allowed to drink a lot soda's because their  are my  dad soda's)
33. I sleep with my baby blankets
34. I sleep with night lights 
35. I never sneak out of the house 
36. I learn different and at a different rate 
37. I am great with kids, but not book smart
38. I am Awana leader 
39. I hate grilled cheese sandwiches
40. I hate pancakes 
41. I can touch my nose with my tongue 
42. My hair stops growing at a point 
43. I look younger than my age 
44. I never own a biki swimsuit
45. I love swimming 
46. I never own pair of short shorts 
47. I love country music 
48. I love things look like cupcakes 
49. I hate cheeseburgers 
50. I don't have any tattoos 

Hello Freshmen Year and goodbye middle school.

Before anything, I am going post freshmen year in one post and other post will be sophomore year than another post will be junior year and another post will be senior year. Than I will tell you the classes I had each year. Let's begin!

I said Freshmen is new meat, Sophomore is getting rare cook, Junior is medium cook, Senior is fully cook. 

HELLO FRESHMEN YEAR! Hello new meat. Whatever name you call freshmen's. My classes for freshmen year was Health( half year), other half was keyboard class, math,English, Study skills ( like study hall), Science, P.E. 

I was so sad on first day of school because my best friend Cassandra move and I only have one friend with me. My friend and I became closer than ever. I hate having health class right after lunch time because it wasn't fun. I was so upset when the teachers told me that I shouldn't be in normal science class, I should be in the lowest science class. I even hated having study skills because everyone in that class, doesn't care and fool around and treated the teacher like crap. My friend, was in my P.E block, but she wasn't with the teacher I had. After half year was over, I got a new science  teacher/class and still have  study skills and got keyboard class. I was so upset having a lower science class because it was super easy and it felt like a easy "A" and I wasn't learning anything new. All the stuff the teacher was teaching, I learned already in from 6th grade.. Everyone who was in my science class, who is in my study skill class, they wanted me to help them aka give them the answers and I didn't even give them the answers. The homework was SUPER easy and doesn't get hard at all. Easy test and easy homework and easy classwork. Just students are lazy and not willing to learn. I HATE having to deal with students are treating teachers and other students like crap. My friend,she didn't judged me for having a low science class.  My English class, wasn't normal English class, but its not the lowest class like my science class. In my science class, I had my friends from 8th grade when I was in the lower class in middle school. In 9th grade,I wasn't getting tease and make fun of and I was actually feeling like I am normal student, but still feel dumb having lowest class for science and having study skills. In 9th grade, I couldn't even date till I was 17 years old. I am Christian and my mom pick my age to date. End of 9th grade, loss my friendship with my friends from middle school who didn't went to my high school,but still friends with Cassandra and my friends in high school. Hopefully in 10th grade will be better.

Me in 2009! Wow!

Hello Middle School

Yay! Middle school  means LOCKERS, changing for P.E, many different subjects. making new friends, MORE BOYS, new teachers! First day of school, in 2007 I went to school with no friends. I was alone little 7th grade with braces and skinny. I was very scared and didn't really want to go to school.. In my P.E. class, I meet new friends! I remember in P.E class, once a week the P.E teachers makes us,students run a mile and they time us and whoever gets the best time or get  done first, they don't have to do the next 1 mile run. Well, the run was 2 laps around the WHOLE field and up the "Z" stairs and down to do the another lap. The field was so big and long and always not fun when you have P.E after lunch and before lunch and LAST period of the day, its SUPER hot..  Sunny California does have great hot days.. Near the holidays, we run around the school twice and its called "Turkey Run" "Oh Santa Can't Out Run Me." Can you guess who always got best time? ME!!!! I saved my times to don't have to run that week... I used them for helping pushing my friends to get in a time before 16 mins. I met a lot new people, who became my friends. Well, in 7th grade I was in math,English, Earth science, P.E, history, social studies. I HATED social studies because its a class that you can do your homework and its like study hall, but its for students who have learning problems. I HATE it so much and I hate my teacher, I had because she smells and her breath smells like onions and her hands always very dirty, its doesn't look clean and she was CRAZY! One day in history class, I meet a person name Amy and she have a grandpa name Ron and I have grandpa name Ron and our grandpa both have same last name. We both told our moms about each other and our moms says that is your cousin! :O We cousins and we didn't know that ? LOL and funny part too is both of our mom's work in the same building and same office!!!  In 7th grade , I had to go to once a week to a person for my speech problem and he was crazy and mean and I hate speech and had to go out of class. I felt so different than anyone and I didn't like telling people where I was going.. I felt if I did, I was gonna be make fun of. 7th grade wasn't that hard and couldn't wait for 8th grade and I was so happy and was like how people say middle school is rough? Let's begin 8th grade, and let the roughness begin! In 8th grade, I still had my group of friends, I made and made more friends in 8th grade! My 8th grade classes I had was,P.E, math,history,science, I don't remember the name of the class, but I had a class that I help out special needs kids and something else. In 8th grade, we had a meeting with all my teachers and my mom and the teachers told my mom that I have to be put in lower class for English and I was super upset.. I didn't wanted be in a lower class.. I was super upset and felt like they were trying to say that I am stupid.. My mom told me to prove them wrong and show them how smart you are and don't let no one tell you are dumb when you are really are smart. So, I went with the flow. In that class is with the same teacher and same students in the class.. They were all so lazy and they like the work because it was easy. I hated that class because I love getting hard questions and that I can used my brain. I hate getting easy homework and classwork because its makes me feel why I should go to school and not be using my brain??? One day, I was walking home from school ( I live like 15 mins away from school and its all flat and only a hill where I live and I just have walk up three houses to my house on the hill) and not a lot people walk home and there was a girl from my elementary school who goes to my middle school , who was walking home too and she lives right behind me and she hated me so much, she follow me home.. She call me names and say mean things to me while I was walking in front of her. Next day, She did it again and this time she did was walk on other side and stop on the side of her street and waited till I walk up my street to see where I lived. The 3rd day, I got a ride home from my friend because her mom wanted to see if she could see if there another way for me to walk home without the bully knowing and sadly no other way. After week later of dealing with the bully, I went to the school office and fill out a paper to tell what is going on. So, one day I got a note to go to the office and I explain to them what happen and they told me that they talk to her and she got in trouble and that great for me to do  the right thing. They asked me, does your mom know what happen? I say no, I didn't told her yet because I wanted to try to fix this problem first than if it doesn't get work than I will ask her help. They were surprise that I did this on my own and didn't need anyone to help me out.  In 8th grade, I got made fun of because I had a crush on someone and there were bullies trying to say he likes me and blah blah. My best friend,Cassandra who I met in 7th grade told me sad news after 8th grade is over she is moving :( and I was so sad because she was the closest friend out of the group of friends. Than our friend, Hillary isn't going be going to the same high school as me, but only 1 friend out of the group of friends is going to the same high school as me.  After 8th grade is over, we went to eat and we had to say goodbye to Cassandra.. :( She move near to Disneyland.   8th grade was great, but hard because I got bullied and I got make fun of and I had to say bye to my BFF and only had friend is going to my high school. 

Me in 7th grade

Elementary School + Dyslexia = Alone Julianne

How I should start this blog? I been thinking about how I should start out about my years going to school with my ADHD and dyslexia from a young kindergartner to a young 20 almost 21 year old women. Well, you might wanted to get a snack and a drink because this is going be crazy, sad,happy,funny years of my years going to school. Let's started off with elementary school than I will add another blog about middle school years and high school years. My  kindergarten and 1st grade was so fun because at the time, I was pretty much "normal" kid.  I remember that one day in first grade, the teacher say put on your jackets because its cold and I say why should we put on our jackets? You might be cold,but you don't if I am cold or not. Than she says do you want me call your mom to tell her what you told me? Than I put on my jacket, and I was raise to say your opinion, but when the person listen and told you to do something, you do it without complaining. I was at a school that wasn't a school that helps kids with a learning disability. I had to transfer to another school half of second grade to another school. I went to a new school that can helped me and the school was only less than five mins away from my house which was a great plus. My old school was like 15-20 mins away and I went to daycare and the daycare lady dropped me off at school. In second grade, I had a new daycare I went too and I was in daycare because my dad and mom work all day and my mom didn't wanted me to stay home alone. In second grade, there was a field trip to take the train to somewhere( I don't remember where to) and I LOVE going on trains, but that day I didn't want to go and I didn't go. In second grade, I had my first crush on a boy and that crush last till I was in MIDDLE SCHOOL! This crush at the time and still do as today, lives one street before me and I don't know why I had a crush on him. At this new school, I had my first crush and first bullies and first friends and first friendships got crushed and first classmate passed away at a young age.At the new school, one week you can bring marbles and play with other kids.  In second grade,I started with going to resource aka ( special ed resource)  and going to speech therapist. I hated  so much at a time of day, I had to get up and go to a different classroom. I felt so different and felt that I had to go to a classroom for dumb people. I'm not like other people with learning disability because I am super close to being in regular classes. I am just weak at reading and writing and spelling because my dyslexia, but I am very good in math. The resource teacher told my mom that your daughter, is a fighter and she works so hard that she doesn't wants the easy way out, she wants to work for her grade, and she doesn't let the ADHD and dyslexia get in her way.  In 2003, I was a little 3rd grader and ready for another school year. In 3rd grade was one of the fun years at school, I made new friends. In 2003, there was huge fire where I live and school got cancelled a lot. The fire was around the whole city and right close by my house and school... Was very scary and tons of ashes and smokey. In  3rd grade, we went on a field trip, which was my FAVORITE filed trip ever, The Ronald Reagan Library!!! I love Ronald Reagan, I did a report him on. In 2004, 4th grade and one of the rough and fun and sad year for me. In 2004, my dad had a stroke and our loving bond was crushed.. Read my blog about my early childhood to learn about my dad and mom. In 2004, my favorite president die and I was crying from that . 4th grade was my first teacher was a male and he was so fun and funny teacher, he was 6 feet tall and HUGE and he was BALD! I remember so much about how funny, my teacher was, he made his students carried a tall, long piece of wood, that was taller than all of the class..  He made learning fun and he made math so fun and since than I LOVE and became a math geek. One day, he was making us run for P.E and he say running makes us healthy, and I say why, I should run ( I was skinny) when I am healthy? He reword his words and saying running keeps us healthy and fit and doesn't matter what shape and size we are.  I remember every time when the school photographer for the yearbook, she tries to take a picture of the class or of my teacher, the teacher made us do make huge "W" with our fingers and put it on our foreheads and say WHATEVER! haha.. My 4th grade teacher had a mac computer and that was the FIRST time I saw a apple product. He was so awesome, he made fake money and once of month, there a was a shop you can buy stuff. That year, the teacher let each student in the class to make a song with a program to put on a CD.   In 2005, I was in 5th grade and another male teacher and still got amazing friends, but sadly I didn't know the next year, was going say bye bye friends and hello be alone all my 6th grade life.  In 5th grade, I did the talent show with my friend, who was a tomboy. I didn't knew that she would make my other friends to hate me.  In 5th grade, I got made fun of because I was too skinny and I didn't started to grow breasts and my speech problem and going to a different classroom to learn. I was called stupid and all bunches of names. Than later that year, I lost that friend of mine who was a tomboy.  Next year 2006, woohoo last year of school and a year later, I will be in MIDDLE SCHOOL! In 6th grade, I lost all my friends because they didn't accept me for me and that they didn't enjoy getting made fun of..  In 6th grade, we had a garden and the DARE program and did a played. I just remember me sitting at lunch alone, and sitting on the grass alone when listening about what our P.E is going be. In my 6th grade yearbook, there a picture of everyone in a group of their friends, and I was there alone. I am crying and sad right now as posting this, and I can't write more. 

First nine years of my life

I was born on Sunday, March 6th,1994 at 2:30 Pm. I was only 5 pounds 5 oz and only 16 inches long. My mom say I was just like a baby doll, that was tiny and light to carry with no hair. She was afraid to take me home because I was so tiny. When I was a baby, a lot people held me and carrying me. Plus my dad and mom couldn't handle me crying, so they held me a lot too. On my first ever Christmas, I was sick with the flu and my mom was sick with the flu too! Pretty much since I was three months old, I was sick a lot and having tons of ear infections. Sadly, all those ear infections cause me not hear really good and that how my speech problem came from. I was sick a lot of my early childhood, till I started school. I was at the doctors every week with a ear infection or a bladder infection. I couldn't hold my bladder for two mins!! I always had to used the bathroom and it was so hard to hold my bladder and I pee my pants. Than one doctor appointment, the doctor made me to go see the Urology. So, my mom took me to see the Urology and I was around 2 years old at the time. He did tons of testes to see why I can't hold my bladder. At the time, my mom and dad didn't know I have ADHD. The nurses did was shoot a needle in my arm and had to leave the needle in my arm and I wasn't crying at all. My mom told me that when you are done with your tests, you always walk around with a nurse and see other people getting x ray done or other kind of test done. After all that fun tests, the doctor told my mom that her tube that goes to her bladder, the fab doesn't work really good, so she needs surgery. Than I got surgery and got a pretty nice scar. The doctor did was make the two tubes to my bladder into one and he wasn't worry that I will be having any health problems. After that surgery, I been healthy since than at age 3. Well, when I was in 1st grade,my teacher told my mom that she thinks that I have ADHD and the school test me to see if I have dyslexia and sure enough, I do. My mom was crush, when she found out. She was worried that I won't be normal and that I would be different than the other kids, but at the time she didn't knew that I will be amazing women.  My dad and I were so close. I remember every weekend my dad and I play board games with each other or even go to the movies and enjoy each other company. When I was in forth grade, I was home alone with my dad and I check up to see my dad to see if he wants to play a game with me, he wasn't looking to good. I was little worried about him and I called my mom, she wast working and she came home for lunch and saw how my dad is, she wanted to rush him to the doctors. The doctors told my mom to rush him to the hospital because he was having a stroke. After that day, my life went to a huge change and became different. My dad and I lost our bond and he became drinking a lot till the point of can't walk. I try a ton to try to get to my dad back who I remember as a fun,loving,caring dad. Now ten years later of having his stroke, we still haven't had a movie date or play board games. He just doesn't wanted to be alive. 

My mom and I